Heals The Original Dryness

things aileen has flaked out on today:
-waking up on time
-memorizing her page for class
+luckily 3 people in our group just plain didn't show up, so i didn't feel quite as bad, but patty gave me a little talking of "i'm not mad i'm just disappointed" cause she wants me to succeed and i want me to succeed too i just let me down so much... uch. i wonder how i'm going to function outside the quarter system. if just being on theatre time is going to help me, or if i fall into same patterns... that will be interesting to find out....
-writing my fucking process paper
-meeting with joey
-going to therapy
+ watched the "dress rehearsal" for the clown show that i'll miss on friday cause of josie's graduation
-watching gilmore girls (which i wouldnt have gotten to if i had gone to therapy anyway...)

now friends of mine are going to be watching a musical, don't know which one, and i really wanted to join them but i just got home and i haven't eaten and i need to write these papers and i want to go to barn trek and i was planning on working til then so it would be really bad of me to blow off my work time to continue just playing when i blew off so many things to watch the clowning show. and i might be blowing off a cast party on saturday... or blowing off jay to go to said cast party... and driving myself insane because there are just so many places to be this weekend