ok, while i'm here, breif over veiw of last few days. went to lilo and stich, cutest movie ever, really wished benn were there because there were so many moments that i just needed to hug someone and since i had just met the guy i was sitting next to i thought it would be a little odd to throw my arms around him, so i just kinda leaned on him momentarily when hugging my knees just didn't cut it. we then, after much sillyness in the parking lot and attempting to steal candy from the concession stands (which were empty cause it was midnight) we went and found a carrows and had food, dancer people also flooded in including this guy justin who is going to penn next year cause if he went to nyu he would give up school at the first offer to be in a show, which you KNOW will happen, so i will someday pretend to be a screaming fan outside the stage door of one of his shows when he gets to new york. went home, slept, woke up the the house alarm going off because the garage door to the back yard blew open (it does that sometimes) and a headache, which was not made better by working in a room full of paint fumes (i worked on the edges and window hubs).
proceeded to have a terrrible morning invloving being late to get out of the house, catching the dash in time tho cause we hopped on the bus 72, but then the dash had to make every single fucking stop on its way to the train station so we got there JUST as the fucking train was starting to move. josie breaks down, i'm annoyed that i now have to deal with a crying person as well as a missed train, we attempt to get the bus22, which we also miss, so we just wait for the next trian, i'm smelly, paint covered, lacking a dvd that i needed to turn in, and late to meet alfred and unable to contact him. when we finally got on the train josie daid "bad morning, huh" i said "i've had worse" but really couldn't think of any specific ones on par with our morning off the top of my head at that moment...
met up with alfred at the train station (he figured that i had probably just missed the train) complained about my morning, made our way over to stanford shopping center, filled out an app for talbots, couldn't remember dad's school's phone number, had to call max to look it up, turned it in, went and got big macs at mcdonalds, proceeded to wander down univeristy ave, aiming for trappings of time but we never quite got there cause we got distracted by like ever store on the way, he had to go back to the trainstation at about 4:30, so we parted, i went over to benn's, cuddled and watched him play halo, coinvinced his parents to get pizza, watched tv, ocean's eleven, slept, went back down to san jose to paint, played on the computer, at pasta and tuna fish, went to see bourne identity which was then sold out, so we went back to my house, i painted for a bit more, went to bourne identity at another theatre, came to his house... of course that last part with the movie and the moving and the painting and the stuff was far more complicated and revealed that i can't make discissions when i really don't know what my priority's are, but you learn something new everyday :)
republished archives. i was talking to one of elliot's friend about my social history and wanted to refer him to benn's email... but it wasn't there... yeah i know, not the most interesting of blogs, i just feel bad cause i haven't blogged in a bit...
i'm tired, i'm stiff, no one's around, my eyes are being weird, i totally thought i had taken my medication monday night, but it turned out i didn't. my scalp itched, i'm starting to break out, my right ear peircing has for no good reason decided it was time to test out their inflamitory and puss making skills, both of my eyes last night looked like i had pooked them in the sides, there was just this bloodshot line down the sides of both of them, my skin was looking weird, like a sunburn but it had missed a spot on my cheek, and i want to blame the highly toxic fumes of the latex paint we're putting on my sister's wall, but i really have no idea. and i really need to eat food.
you never realize...
how short you're hair is till you've washed it.
how big a room is until you've painted it.
we're painting josie's room. tis fun... in a relative sense, as in there are worse things to do with one's time. her room is the hottest in the house, and it was quite hot today as well. we both had hairs sticking to our face because of the beads of sweat dripping down. good thing we had the pool. and a computer in a shady part of the house where i could eat food and discuss life affirming topics while allowing my body temperture to go down. i love summer. oh! and i got to talk to neil tonight. if i am human prozac, he is human SPEED! oh my god! oh and i might get a job at talbots which is right next to coldwater creek cause i called today and they might still be in need of people. :)
my hair is poofy. i don't think i would have ever let it get this poofy if i were in highschool, but i rather like it now. it's very me.
you know, i'm really pissed off not at the job people but at myself cause it's really my fault for not promptly calling so i can't wallow and be pisseed off cause then people will just come up to me and say, well, think of it as a learning experience. i'm fully fucking aware that it's a learning experience, it's a learning experience i've had since i was in second grade! i'm slow! i have cronic delayed response! so now it's not only cost me grades, but potential money. rawr!
and i'm not going to feel better til i have another potential job under my belt, which i don't because a bunch of other places i turned in an app for have filled they're positions, and the others don't have they're highering managers available today, so there's NOTHING i can FUCKING DO. [<- exaderation, there is stuff i can do and am doing, i'm just really fucking pissed right now]
alright, i have about 5 dilemmas going on in my head right now.
first offm benn's parents have NOT COMMENTED on my hair cut yet. but his mom HAS SEEN me since i've cut my hair. granted my hair was tied back, so probably if i go out there with my hair down they'll notice and i'll have to explain and talk to them and they'll have to make witty comments and make fun of what could have gone wrong (don't get me wrong i love benn's parents, but small doses... small doses... well not even that, just they're sense of humor... and my mood right now... uch, i feel guilty cause they're benn;s folk, but he gets annoyed with them too sometimes!) but you know it's one am so they're not out there so what am i talking about. brb *goes and gets some water*
i also want to buy boots from delia's but a) i don't know how well they'll fit me, b) i can't decide whether it's worth it to become a member and get the boots for 16.99 instead of 19.99 and then cancel my membership cause i don't want to pay 5 bucks a month, and c)i can't decide whether to buy them now or wait till i have birthday money to splurge, but if i do wait, will they still be available? what if they aren't? MEH! it's very very annoying...
Blast! can't find the digital camera. i REEAALLY want to cut my hair but i have to get pictures before i do cause i haven't gotten any pictures of me with really long hair. damn it all to bloody hell.
i'm going to cut my hair. it's annoying me. benn is excited. alfred is appalled. ian thinks my hair is fun. um... that's all the people i've talked to about it so far besides my mom and sister, and they don't hugely care. i'm going to need to get many a before and after picture. for posterity. and for the fun of getting pictures taken :)
so, all you people who read about coming to rocky horror on the 20th, listen -i mean, read up. the park is closing, they couldn't get they're lease reissued, so july 6th is the last one at the park. so! for pixie sticks and nakedness (well not quite nakedness, but who knows) come to the midnight showing on the 6th/7th i have no idea how you say dates for a midnight show.
my neck and back have been really bitchy recently. i want to get a massage for my birthday.
it was hilarious i was all depressed and hunched over cause i miss benn cause i'm not over there cause he gets distracted by my presence and was very frustrated with this last night cause he had lots of work to do, so i'm at home so he can do work but depressed cause he's so stressed and tired... and then he signs on... and i sit up and i smile, and the world brightens and birds sing and music swells! ... or rather it would have if i were in a movie cause thats exactly how it felt :)
mer-ROWR! everyone send happy, non-stress, productive, happy vibes to benn so he doesn't die of stress and exaustion :( very upseting seeing him like this..
i saw a bumper sticker when i was walking through san jose state i saw a bumper sticker on a car that said (with appropriate fish symbols) "darwin is dead. jesus is alive. which would you trust with your eternal soul?"
well, we're back to our old laptop. it seems to clunky compared to benn's computer and benn's friend foo's titanium lap top. can we say "sa-weet"? anyway, back to my old settings, favorite list, and having the breast cancer site come up whenever i open internet explorer. don't you people neglect it like i have!
job interview this morning. went rather well. i charmed her. it almost felt dirty how much i was shamelessly promoting myself, but thats what you're supposed to DO in a job interview. *sigh* if i can figure out my schedule and work nights and weekend i'll definately have a job, but i don't know really. i need to get a scooter. or just bite the bullet and walk there. get exercise "besides humping" to quote my mom *rolls eyes* and we wonder where i get it from.
gad damn. apparently, like EVERYONE was at rocky horror last night, and i REALLY wanted to go cause i bought a new sexy dress and i wanted to show it off and jason said he'd take pictures so i could have pictures... and then i didn't go, cause transportation up there would be difficult, and benn and ben were going up to a concert in the city, and i thought what the hell, and had a do nothing evening where i talked online with elliot for many an odd hour, i SO need to get him addicted to invader zim, and then worked on chain maille for a bit (thats right, i'm back in the habit. if all goes well i should have a jacket by the end of summer. a vest possibly earlier, cause i'm gonna make a vest and then add sleeves. gad damn i'm so depressed now (back to rocky horror here) rawr...*pouts* everyone who reads this and has the ability to go to rocky horror picture show need to come to rocky horror picture show the third saturday of july. thats july 20. i will not yet be 19, but techically since it is a midnight showing, it's actually accuring on july 21, so it will be my birthday (even if i was born at 1:23 in the afternoon) so yeah! it'll be a birthday thing! i'll get a large bag of pixie sticks and we can all get sugar highs off of them! it'll be great! and if you don't come.... not only will i hate you forever and ever... but you won't get any pixie sticks :P
went back to bed this morning and slept till about 2:30. took a shower, tried to call dave but he was out bike riding or something. benn's cat doesn't like me anymore so i'm slowly attempting to win her back with bribes of food and stuff. i think giving her tuna water from my lunch helped a bit.
curse people for sleeping till 12. curse benn for not feeding me last night so i wake up at 7:20 with a grumbly stomach. curse benn for having an effect on my sleeping habits ;) *sigh*
and dave gonna be late to come play with me today... how is it that when we're six years old thats fine but when we're almost 19 that has suspicious connotations? stupid sex. but no, we're gonna watch dvds, utilize my swiming pool cause it's probably 80 degrees in san jose, play cards, eat food, HAVE SUMMER. your typical 6 year old activities when you invite your friend over to play. hence the phrase :)
*listens to pink floyd in the meantime* ticking away the moments that make up a dull day...
enter reality:
benn is debating whether or not its really a good idea for him to move to santa cruz next quarter...
the house would actually be $2000 a month if it were 400,000, $2200 a month if it were 425,000, and $2500 a month if its 450,000... i was confused about this concept...
all of this can be DELT with don't get me wrong, it's not nearly as bad as when 4 of our people dropped out. but still, my body doesn't seem to be enjoying this. but that might just be the bad chicken we ate a couple days ago...
i'm falling victim to the paz complex of deteriorating bloggish-ness when exposure to boyfriend is high. i apologize.
looked at houses. because i'm lazy here's the email that i sent to everybody, but in case i missed some... *shrug* also for posterity's sake
i went with marcy to look at houses today. we didn't get to see the one on wilkes, but thats fine, we're probably not going to buy that one because we looked at one that is even BETTER! it's a three bedroom 1.25 bath (there's a toilet in the garage, she's thinking she might put in a stall shower at some point, when she has the money) on... oh i forget the street, rankin or something. it's RIGHT near safeway, but like 3 blocks away so its a really quiet neighborhood. its got a two car garage, it's got a fireplace in the living room (which is really nice and big and open) furnished kitchen (connected with the living room), pantry closet, and then two little rooms, the bathroom, and the master bedroom all in kinda a row (it's a narrow but deep house), and a patio in the back yard, a little patch of lawn, and a HOT TUB! WE WOULD BE THE ROCKIN'IST HOUSE EVER!!! it's on the market for 475,000 right now, but marcy's going to try to bargin it down to 425k. it's been on the market for a while so she may be able to. if not she'll settle for 450k. anyway, at some point i think that the five of us should go down and look at it and see how living arrangements might work out. if we're able to convert the garage into a living unit we'd all be able to fit really well. not sure how POSSIBLE that is, i'll need to talk to marcy. if that doesn't work either benn and i could squeeze into one of the small rooms and the two of you could share the mb, or you (james) and charles could duke it out or see if one of you would rather live on campus. we'll work something out.
charles is pretty excited about the house. haven't talked to james yet. according to marcy it would be interesting to convert the garage but that would involve time and money they don't have yet, esp since the family selling the house wouldn't be able to close till september cause they still need to find a place to live. anyway, we'll probably go back with a tape measure sometime and figure out if it's possible to cramp a double into one of the small rooms. i reeeaaally want all three of the guys to be able to live with us, it would just be so cool! *sigh. pout*
oh, and one of my boobs is larger than the other (just by a bit, but i notice it) it's probably because of my period or the pause in the birth control pills for this week (for my period, for those out of the know). in my dream the bcps were also effecting my teeth, making them go really crooked. i couldn't talk well cause i was trying to hold my teeth in place.
it really feels silly how i'm packing up everything i own AGAIN to ship it back to the place i originally had it only to probably do the same thing in a few months. i'm almost wanting to live out of my suitcase this summer, but that really won't do now will it
