Heals The Original Dryness

i don't know what to do with myself... and it seems a lot of people are asking themselves this question... i have a lot of things to look forward to, but nothing i want to do right now. well, i can think of some things, but their not in sync with what i need to do, aka write papers of some sort. so what do i do? create drama for myself...

(note: reedeo is not his actual sn)
NeeliaBuzz: why do i react to high stress by creating social drama for myself?
NeeliaBuzz: nothing huge just personal over reactions
Reedeo: yeah?
NeeliaBuzz: and you know questioning my place in society and why do i bother and i hate people, esp girls who dress skimpy, wear too much makeup and their hair big, but don't actually have any self esteem so they have to talk everyone else down
NeeliaBuzz: and why am i so sensitive that i actually take that low self esteem reaction bullshit to heart and care what she thinks
Reedeo: im sorry
Reedeo: that doesnt sound like much fun
NeeliaBuzz: i'm just in a mood
NeeliaBuzz: but its also reading this shit on myspace or live journal or something
NeeliaBuzz: so i'm finding out indirectly and its like an indirect insult that was never supposed to actually get towards me or something
NeeliaBuzz: and she's probably joking but it still throws me
NeeliaBuzz: *shrug*
NeeliaBuzz: it them brings me to other just stupid self doubt questions and blech
NeeliaBuzz: i too do not want to write papers