Heals The Original Dryness

holy shit, jacket boy is back from the dead.
friend of mine apparently ran into him at some gig in san jose and they got to talking and with the whole santa cruz/theatre connection this friend had, apparently my name came up. less than 24 hours later, i receive an IM. *choir of angels sing*

unfortunately, at that very moment, i was discovering that mike was not at home and that i really should have called before i came over and realized this meant i was going to have to walk to base of campus and attempt to hitch a ride from there to get to chautauqua meeting, where mike turned out to be... i proceeded to curl up into a ball and cry because i had been having a very bad afternoon evening day and was once again questioning how worth it this world is and if it mattered if i was in it or not and what an insignificant aimless speck of dust i was in this universe...

but i'm better now. after rehearsal i made another attempt at mike's house to find that he was just starting a group quest on world of warcraft, so i sat and watched the expedition. its been a while since i've just sat and watched video games, it was nice, its a different form of entertainment, esp with mike on headset talking to his housemate upstairs, providing a sort of running commentary, thats really what makes watching video games worth it, the people playing going "SHIT! SHIT! GET OUT OF THERE! RUN DUDE!"

look at that... i wrote a blog entry... i haven't had the drive to do that in a while, and thats been very frustrating. its also frustrating and sad because i'm supposed to be journaling on a regular basis for at least two of my classes, i probably should be journaling my directing saga too, but i just have had no physical ability to write recently. when the mind is willing the body is collapsed. then visa versa. bleh. but hey, mike still likes me, and tomas came back from the dead, and brian is coming to josie's show with me this weekend, and dan would have come to timothy's party with me but he had other plans already, and max is a sweetie, so i guess life's not too bad.