Heals The Original Dryness

Heals The Original Dryness

i am no longer a faerie

it was not vanity that drew her to the mirror;
it was the amazement at seeing her own "I."
-the unbearable lightness of being

1.17.2005

i bought a paper journal to document my depression in, something to write down the problems i want to talk about in therapy and in general have something to carry around so i'm not depending on a computer to write stuff on this and so this doesn't become an all depression all the time channel. and its nice, i'm working out a lot of things, or maybe i'm just thinking that way cause i'm reading a novel about philosophy so i'm super keen on my reasoning capabilities. anyway, so i've come to a lot of interesting realizations. unfortunately they all pretty much boil down to it being my fault/my problem, and i've just brought it on myself because of the way i think and being a total hypocrite. *sigh* so... what do we do now? am i just supposed to change how i think? just learn to not care? suppress the caring? somehow i don't think thats going to work for me. we'll have to see what a professional says on wednesday.

Quoth the Raven # 2:27 AM

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