Heals The Original Dryness

so because my subconcious is just that fabulous, i had a dream this morning emphasizing my insecure and deep jealous nature. something involving as you like it and me not remembering my phebe(sp?) lines and some love triangle among the acting interns. it ended with me attempting to scream out my driveway and my older sister acting like some buddist priest trying to calm me down and justify the ways of the world.

ari and i have officially broken up for a week, maybe longer, we'll see. i have had little to no libido these last couple weeks, which sucks cause guys usually do and i have been having to say, "no get off me" a lot more than i ever thought i would. i'm upset that i don't have control over boys who are 300/3000 miles away from me. i'm upset that i am bugged by this and that i am that much of a control freak. i'm frustrated that i don't know how the details of moving are going to work out. my room is a mess. i need to get more organized.

rawr, this isn't helping. when i woke up this morning it seemed like i really needed to purge my mind but this isn't going anywhere, i need to shower. i'm going to see hero this afternoon with darin and i have my last tamer tamed show tonight. i'm probably just getting post show depression early. *sigh*