Heals The Original Dryness

i think i'm a slight hypocondriac. not a good thing. makes one quite paranoid. doesn't help to surround yourself with people who are disease paranoid too.

so, a poetic discription of the remains of my herpes. for those of you uneducated in the matter, Cold sores, sometimes called fever blisters, are clusters of small blisters on the lip and outer edge of your mouth. The skin around the blisters is often red and inflamed. The blisters can break open, weep a clear fluid, and then scab over after a few days. Complete healing may take 7 to 10 days. (description provided by WebMD. notice the use of capital letters. obviously not my words :)
i am currently in the part of the healing process that involves the scabbing over for a few days. despite its appearance of being just dried clear fluid, it is actually a scab and therefore can not just be cleaned off by chipping off the crustingness that is on my chin. its like the remains of a battleground, attached to my face. the war is no longer going on (aka the desire to take a scalpel to my face has lessened) but i'm basically carring around a carcass. its not the most attactive thing. nor does it feel like an attractive thing. a mini equivalent of the albatross. but for what? for making out with a guy who had a little bit of chin stubble that scraped at my skin not enough to make it bleed but just enough for my dormant virus to go "ooo! thats prime landscaping there!"

*sigh* i hate those doctors appt where i very much feel like i didn't need to be there in person for it. the lady barely looked at my sore, and the info that i got was that cold sores weren't actually usually treated. the medical studies show that medications only usually help reduce healing time by maybe a day. that i probably just missed the window of opportunity where the meds would have been actually effective against the cold sore. or maybe i'm hiv positive and my immune system isn't as strong and its having trouble fighting the break outs. all HIGHLY comforting thoughts, really they are. on the plus side we officially changed my dosage so instead of having to take 200mg every 3 hours i can take 400mg three times a day and that should be just as effective. yay. and my other personal explination for why this was such a bad break out is that since the herpes wanted to get to my chin cause thats where it was all stimulated and stuff but its most recent pop up was at my lip and thats kinda its home turf it needed to build at its base before it could move into periphery. blerg.