Heals The Original Dryness

i hate how much a fucking cold sore disables me. i was going to see theatre tonight. granted its probably good that i saved $27 but there were two really cute guys in that production that i really wanted to see. i'm tempted to go and hang out around the theatre and just say hi to them or something. but then we get back to the fact that i have a HUGE FUCKING COLD SORE on my chin. it shouldn't but it really does disable me. i don't feel like doing anything, i don't want to go anywhere, i don't want to see anyone. i could have gotten up this morning but instead i decided to continue sleeping waking up every three hours to take some medication because sleeping meant i didn't have to be concious and aware of my fucking chin being on fire. i should see if i can get like topical anesthesia for times like this. carmex tries, it really does, but every time i just want to take a scalpel and remove the affected area. i don't like it! and i hate that i totally saw it coming! i felt it last night but didn't think it was actually it. but last time i made out with a guy who's chin kept scraping mine with his stubble, totally got a cold sore. i shoudl just start taking the stuff morning after. rawr!!!! *pouts*