Heals The Original Dryness

i'm so lame i can't even get a cute guy who's left his jacket and wallet at my place to call me.
 
yes, theres probably more to it then that esp since he's working on a movie (jonathan: jeez, is everyone working on a movie this summer?) and so has really odd and long hours and stuff, but thats how it ends up feeling.
 
i think i'm going to use my birthday as an excuse to call up some of my one night stands and say "what the hell happened man? why'd you never call, huh?" seems like a drunken thing to do. but i try not to get drunk drunk so i would be just drunk enough to have no inhibitions about calling one night stands, but not be so drunk that i can't remember the conversation. or do i want to not remember the conversation. my rational brain says i'd want to remember so i can use the information as a learning experience but if they're just like "well, you were a crazy ho, so i just took what i needed and left the rest for the highway" or whatever guys who don't call me would say, would i really want to remember just being insulted. and i don't think one is supposed to plan ahead one's drunken shenanigans. i'm way too much of an intellectual.