Heals The Original Dryness

still hate women

the super bowl was so hilarious. the raiders got their asses so completely wooped. their quarter back now holds the world record for the most throws intercepted. wow.

i'm being very passive agressive now with regard to tresh and her calling me a whore. i'm basically not talking to her. which is probably better than being bitchy in her face. so many times i was tempted to just say under my breath "well maybe if you hadn't called me a whore..." but i saved it and just held my tounge and just didn't look at her. i hate it that i'm being passive agressive. but i've never been in this situation before. uch, fucking lack of communication. no not lack of communication. she made an attempt to communicate she just said "aileen, you're a whore" instead of "aileen, i don't feel comfortable when you flirt with guys in front of me"

"she didn't mean to call you a whore. what she really ment was blah"
"then why didn't she say that. i mean i was wanting to brush it off and just say 'aw, she's jealous' or 'aw, she's just in a bad mood' but that would be making assumptions about her that i don't knwo for sure and i HATE it when people do that to me! i have trained myself that it's not ok to just avert the blame from yourself. so i'm left with feeling like it was something i did, and blaming it on myself, and feeling like shit"

i fucking hate women.

i don't have time for games. i don't have time for guessing what you mean. i don't have time for subtlty. i don't have time for assumtions. i don't have time for beating around the bush. i take people at face value, because thats what i give. so don't blame me for how you chose to live