Heals The Original Dryness

oh yeah, main reason for not blogging. lack of computer. i use james' when i need it and i'm currently using sean's (and getting a massage from robert :) but yeah, in the last few days james' computer has been out of reach due to the presence of a veronica for extended periods of time, thus resulting in us not being able to go into that room. so yeah. my dad is giving me one of the family desktops, and i'm picking it up on monday. i have a doctor's appt in the morning in cambell, and then we're moving on to santa cruz. seeing benn the rest of the weekend. we didn't have such a great weekend this last weekend. it was just very busy and we didn't get much "us" time, except when we were hugging eachother right before he left. *sentimental moment* isn't it amazing how little things can make everything seem wonderful and yummy and stuff. he had the hiccups for about 12 hours. off and on, but he fell asleep hiccuping and woke up in the same state. it was really sad. he was very irritated. and despite all of our efforts nothing really helped which was frustrating as well.

i had a realization on 17. most of the expensive decisions in my life (school, computer) were made off the idea "well it worked for nora". and yet i am very much not nora. in fact for many years, nora would barely validate me as a person. doesn't do very much for your self esteem.

dear lord. i am going to have to spend tomorrow looking at people's doors. i forgot to check where my logic section is. so i'm going to have to go to stevenson and do that tomorrow morning. damn it! i was planning on calling gap tomorrow and seeing if i could make a job interview. gad damn it. i need a cell phone during times like this. then i have to check the list of contemperary american playwrites to see what plays i can choose from for my monologue for acting class. shit, there are a lot of plays i just have to read because i have to. hm... library... or logos bookstore... damn it, i need money. i need time! i need a segway! not a car, a segway!

*sigh* i should probably go home and get sleep. long day tomorrow.