Heals The Original Dryness

decent into depression: part 2

tho let me make it clear that i'm not depressed 24/7. it comes in occasional spurts, which drive me to seclusion in my room, and what better way to release some pent up feelings than to blog.

quick update: done with school. first quarter in college where i am difinitively done when i should be. no bargining with teachers about turning in 5 week late papers, no trying to decide whether to just bite the bullet and fail a class, no mistaking when a final was and having to retake it in a private session. i mean it helped that i only had one final, or psychology and religion final was optional because we as a class did so damn well, and that final didn't have any wrong information about where and when it was. and DAY-AM i wrote the best essay ever for the second part of that final. i took a really long time with the ID's cause it was 8 in the morning, so i didn't really get full on started with my paper until most of the people were already done. but once i finished a little outline of how to address each question i was just off and i was having sociological insights and figureing out centuries of division between men and women and repression and just figuring out society as we know it. it was insane. but really cool cause i left the exam with that feeling *inhale...* ha... i did really well. which is a highly unusual feeling for me. i really having gotten that in over a year. it was kinda weird. i didn;t know what to make of it.

so my current depression which is not so current anymore cause writting the above helpedwas me thinking about how the guys are leaving to go home before benn and i are... but when they get back... benn won't be here... so when they say bye for winterbreak they're going to be saying bye for good (well not for good but for moving out) to benn... and that was really depressing. the next time i see them benn will be really far away. *sigh*

so we're watching trailers off of the apple website. this movie called "gerry" one person describes as "blair witch meets beckett." i found that very amusing. guerilla existentiallism. not to mention is has matt damon and casey affleck. looks interesting.