Heals The Original Dryness

i haven't checked my email in three days. i can't even get to the aol server. i feel so lost. also my saratonin levels feel really low cause i've been tired and down, and really i've been like that all week probably. i noticed my brain chemistry was off like a week ago, but i said to myself, "eh, you have an appt in like a week and a half, you can survive 10 more days of low medication." i can... hypothetically...

i wouldn't say i've been miserable, because everyone has been wonderful and we're just hanging out and having time to relax, but i feel like in the future if someone asked "so how was you're trip?" i'd give more of a "::shrug:: it was ok" answer. i'm also feeling really tired and fatigued. like my muscles get tired just sitting on the floor. of course, one's body doesn't usually enjoy slouching on the floor, but i feel like i'm getting tired quicker or more easily. anyway, lots of things to be discussed with the doctor on thursday. i'm gonna try to get together with jon tomorrow. still debating tho. i should because well we're in the same region right now and i haven't seen him for a month, but i'm so tired... but this is 11:40 at night, who knows how i'll feel tomorrow. i should shower.