Heals The Original Dryness

my blog seems to have this tendency to be one post behind. so i go and check it and i'm like, "i haven't blogged since sunday? i couldv'e sworn..." and then i come to my edit page and i'm like "ah! yes i did! good, i'm not going completly insane."

i've been majorly paranoid recently, like more than nessecary. i have all these fears that i'm pissing people off and really not meaning to or wanting to and that my relationships are going to be ruined forever or something like that. i think this may be what happens when you combine stress, lack of sleep, and dealing with a friend in a mental hospital. and a boyfriend you have been repeatedly told you don't communicate with enough and lack of SLEEP have i mentioned this? *sigh* paranoia and feeling like your pissing people off is not a good thing. meh. but now i am in bed, happily sexified, and very much ready to fall asleep and get up around noon or so and go do our second performance of program c :)

funny conversation (i amuse myself):
NeeliaBuzz: so you talk more. who are you needing to tell a story to?
elliot42: female
elliot42: person
elliot42: female person
elliot42: I don't discriminate much.
NeeliaBuzz: .............ok
elliot42: it's allllll goood....
elliot42: she's from jr. high
NeeliaBuzz: such specific information....
elliot42: going to st. francis
NeeliaBuzz: ah
NeeliaBuzz: we're getting it more narrowed down now. for a moment there i thought it was an 80 year old in djabuti
elliot42: that was last week
NeeliaBuzz: ah. right right
elliot42: and that wasn't just talking
NeeliaBuzz: your life is so confusing
elliot42: if you know what I mean *wink wink*
NeeliaBuzz: oh i just GOT some if you know what i mean *wink wink*
elliot42: ...
elliot42: ...
NeeliaBuzz: i would know what you ment even if you DIDN'T mean it *wink wink*
elliot42: what are YOU talking about?
NeeliaBuzz: what? benn is here. you think i just put him on a pedestal and call him art?
elliot42: what do you think I do with 80 year old women in djabuti?
NeeliaBuzz: i don;t know, but i think i should try them out
elliot42: well I don't know about you.
elliot42: but I have raging sex with 80 year old women in djabuti
NeeliaBuzz: or try YOU out if you've got 80 year olds from botswana coming over on weekend
NeeliaBuzz: s
elliot42: hrm.
NeeliaBuzz: damn straight
elliot42: well they have quite a rivalry between djabuti and botswana
elliot42: I kind of have to keep them in separate rooms
elliot42: or different weekends or whatnt
elliot42: can't have them getting all rowdy now
NeeliaBuzz: yeah, you know those botswanians have a mean upper cut
elliot42: oh, brutal, yes.
NeeliaBuzz: *nod nod nod*
NeeliaBuzz: (we're so weird)
elliot42: (it's a good thing our conversations *LOOK* normal so no one can tell)
elliot42: (the fools)
elliot42: (ho ho ho)
NeeliaBuzz: (i am sooo posting this)
elliot42: ...
elliot42: ...
NeeliaBuzz: blog
NeeliaBuzz: as i do with many interesting conversations
elliot42: oh dear.
NeeliaBuzz: what? would you rather i not?
elliot42: haha no go for it