Heals The Original Dryness

*calms self* why are there so many songs about rainbows,
and whats on the other side?
rainbows are visions, but also illusions
and rainbows have nothing to hide...


NeeliaBuzz: part of me wants to apologize because i was angry and annoyed and really not talking in the best way, but the other part of me just feels like i've been comprimising how i feel too much by apologizing for it.

it's the whole 'do to others as you would have them do to you' thing. i feel they should apologize, so i say i'm sorry. fucked up, i know. and part of the time they really don't have anything to apologize for and it's all me, and part of the time they really were pricks and i have a right to be pissed off and angry... but sometimes they're mixed up in each other, so its difficult to say who needs to apologize, esp when most of it was pms on my part.

so, heres what i can say for certain right now. *climbs up to proverbial roof top, gets out proverbial bull horn, etc.*

jonathan, i'm sorry. i'm glad you have gab in your life and that you are happy. i cherish you as a friend and a person in my life.

benn, i love you. i'm sorry i put you through so much, and i'm sorry you feel you put me through a lot as well, but you are a wonderful boyfriend and companion and i am so lucky to have someone like you in my life

bryy, i will never understand you but you will pull through this.

ok, thats all *goes off to sing and study*