Heals The Original Dryness

honesty is the best policy, yes? but.. but.. it would be so much easier if they didn't know about eachother! but they already do cause i'm so damn honest in reeeaaally not wanting to get involved in conflicts that could have been solved by simple communication. (aileen, your life is not a movie... as much as you would like it to be... it's not that simple.) see my conflict now is the inner choice conflict, but there shouldn't even be an inner choice conflict cause i LOVE things as they are, it's such an ideal situation, but my stupid! fucking! hormones! keep creeping up on me, and no, i don't do anything with them but i do mention they are there because i'm a communicative person like that *hangs head (just you wait, it will save the world someday)* and i'm really not sure if that builds up tension or no, because we have NO OTHER TENSION TO COMPARE IT TO! *sigh* my life is WAY too much like the unbearable lightness of being. i am so tomas. but if i really am tomas i shall eventually become tired with this lifestyle and seek another, one closer to the earth and less light (the lightness becomes unbearable, hence the name... :) but we just have to get through this whole complicated middle part. *sigh* damn muscle memory triggered hormones.

i really should sleep. my blogging at 2 am isn't always the clearest and most articulate of blogging...