Heals The Original Dryness

i think i should go back into therapy. i have issues with women. and power. and women taking my power.

in my frontal lobe i know that i create my own power and no one is allowed to take it without my permission.

in my dorsal lobe i feel like there is something fundamentally lacking or fixed about me that will always make me inferior.

in my frontal lobe, i feel when i feel happy and sexy that buys could really fall all over me,

in my dorsal lobe, i'm the ugly little one in the corner that annoys people when she gets in their face.

and now, in my fear and anger and love, i've fucked up 2 or 3 peoples lives, maybe more. i've said it before and i'll say it again. i have a curse. anything and everything i previsualize doesn't happen. everything. and people say i have issues with trust...