Heals The Original Dryness

i'm very much taking my life as if it were all in my head, and hence, seeing how it's summer and i've been having QUITE a taste for happiness and love and everything, i'm chosing to focus more on what is wonderful right now. also i'm trying to take whats not good and change it. this is called optimisim

hi, my name is aileen, and i'm living in oblivion...

*sigh* yet at the same time there a small hint of sluttishness to me right now. i'm only kinda thinking that because when i'm going off haveing flirtish fun with everyone i know, i'm really NOT thinking about it. when i step back and compare myself to myself 5 months ago, it's really interesting and i don't know what to make of it. what am i doing? *sighs, hangs head, runs fingers through hair*

"there is no pain; you are receiding... a distant ship, smoke on the horizon... you are only coming through in waves... you're lips move, but i can't hear what you're saying..." (i put this down first and kinda tried to shape my thoughts so this would work at the end. comfertably numb has been in my head this evening... hm, i wonder why?)