Heals The Original Dryness

Heals The Original Dryness

i am no longer a faerie

it was not vanity that drew her to the mirror;
it was the amazement at seeing her own "I."
-the unbearable lightness of being

6.12.2001

reading kelli's arcives. amazing.

it brings me to a problem. i've not been seriously in touch with my emotions. theres a wall here *gestures at her heart*. i'm not sure what i should do. i'm afraid to let loose and let things out. like crying. i havn't had a very good cry recently. and moving speaches, i can feel myself getting choked up, but to i cry? no. i'm even totally non emotional about graduation. i have a great time, and i feel wonderful at gradutation, and i didn't feel like i was acting in a superficial manner there, but i'm just feeling so NUMB about everything. what do i do? have a fling? go into therapy? fall asleep at a reasonable time? uch.. i really should have done that... but no, ed HAD to be on tv at 9:00 so i don't go to bed, then feel awake again later, but incredably crappy... i need a hug... or SOME from of human contact...

i'm afraid of what i'm in denial about...

Quoth the Raven # 12:05 AM

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