Heals The Original Dryness

*deep sigh!* i just had a really flirty conversation with neil, at the end of which he reminded me "you know, we're really fairly platonic" and for a moment i was slightly preturbed, then i realized, "thats right. duh." and he further says he doesn't need life complicated with hormones. i just realized how really great that is... cause i really like having such a platonic guy friend. why the hell do i want to change that? cause it's a challenge. must realize that is a stupid reason. ok. must just stop THINKING about the whole thing. *sigh* i complicate myself. anyway, then i proceeded to accidentally CLOSE THE IM conversation b/f i printed it! i nearly had a heart attack! (on the other hand, it was a genuine "holy shit!!" moment, with sudden gasp and spasms to boot. i've had few of those) luckily, neil saves all his IM's so he can send it to me! he's such a savior!!! i could just KISS him! wait! stop that, aileen... let it be... but, but, what if things are weird now?... they'll get better. let it be... but! *sigh* it's late.. i shouldn't take this seriously. it shouldn't be important. mrowr.

on the other hand, jonathan and i kinda had sex, but it really didn't count cause... it wasn't full out sex, and i didn't get off on it. so his virginity is not lost, but put aside; and mine's really fairly intact. *looks around* what?

i also got a bunch of CDs! more forbidden broadway! woo hoo!