Heals The Original Dryness

i hate patterns. actually, i love patterns, thats why i seek them and see them everywhere. but i hate this pattern. cause it doesn't bode well for me. in terms of backround boys all hooking up these days. i sense a lot of disappointment in the near future. but not direct disappointment. just the frustrating indirect kind that i can't actually do anything about because it's not a direct action towards me and therefore my reaction is rationally unjustified.

on the other hand, if this pattern is the frisky spring mating season, maybe that will work in my favor, eventually.

i really hate finding out over the internet that guys i like now are "In A Relationship"

maybe having a computer in my room was a bad idea...

I said "bukak3" (spelling changed to hopefully avoid weird google hits) really loud in a japanese restaraunt. a small japanese restaraunt. where my voice was the only one going on. and we had been talking about other shit that you don't usually talk about in restaraunts but neither of us were really people with tact. and its going to get us into trouble someday. one of the old ladys that works there came over. i was so sure that she was going to kick us out of the restaraunt. i've gotten kicked out of a bookstore for talking about i think it was the french, but i think i said "fuck the french" and was asked to leave because this bitchy coworker of jonathan's got all offended. but she didn't. she just said i looked so young, and she wanted to make sure my friend that had ordered a beer was over 21. but yeah, not saying it but "you're so young, why are you talking about bukak3?"

great moments in me