tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-29981912009-07-12T13:16:51.336-07:00Heals The Original Dryness<b>i am no longer a faerie</b><br><br><br><br><br>
<br>it was not vanity that drew her to the mirror;<br> it was the amazement at seeing her own "I."<br> -the unbearable lightness of beingQuoth the Ravennoreply@blogger.comBlogger1545125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2998191.post-68445381086808838132007-09-07T19:21:00.000-07:002007-09-07T19:22:30.572-07:00its a really nice feeling that i can't remember his screenname. i wish that were enough to balm the other bruises.Quoth the Ravennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2998191.post-82938994844574674852007-07-17T22:42:00.000-07:002007-07-18T00:15:06.236-07:00i just turned down a booty call. cause i need to stop depending on other people's expectations of me. i need to better my relationship with myself so i can trust myself rather than falling into a cyclical cycle of depending on other people for fulfillment which just ends up freaking them out and pushing them away, leaving me with the lonelyness i'm trying to avoid in the first place.i want to Quoth the Ravennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2998191.post-54394572256576908442007-06-10T23:52:00.000-07:002007-06-11T00:06:54.731-07:00Haiku's formerly on facebook, but i decided i wanted to go a different route after i wrote the last two and realized i was getting defensive, and don't want to have any of that on facebook, so we're changing it up a little. but i wanted to keep these around, so i copy/pasted over here, but got distracted between the two steps and was freaked out that i lost everything by copy/pasting somethign Quoth the Ravennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2998191.post-56906951111563516872007-03-09T10:46:00.001-08:002007-03-09T10:46:53.725-08:00Quoth the Ravennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2998191.post-1168414070624125352007-01-09T23:26:00.000-08:002007-01-09T23:27:50.660-08:00i have a beer in me and blogging seemed like a good ideawhy do birds suddenly appear every time you are near?just like me, they long to be close to youQuoth the Ravennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2998191.post-1160377912511540732006-10-09T00:10:00.000-07:002006-10-09T00:11:52.546-07:00i feel very sad that there are people out there who do not love their naked selfQuoth the Ravennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2998191.post-1160296129886513532006-10-08T01:23:00.000-07:002006-10-08T01:28:49.886-07:00but we're not meant to be alone! we're meant to be with others! we do not SURVIVE on our own! babies die if they are not given physical contact! so how the hell are we supposed to feel complete within ourselves? how are we supposed to fill our own void? its not in our nature! we are denying nature. to what, make ourselves feel better? that bad feeling is there so that we work to acheive the happyQuoth the Ravennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2998191.post-1160177995955093682006-10-06T16:39:00.000-07:002006-10-08T01:22:28.326-07:00"I believe that it is better to tell the truth than to lie. I believe that it is better to be free than to be a slave. And I believe that it is better to know than be ignorant."Thank you, H.L. Mencken (no relation)"Well, here we are, Mr. Pilgrim, trapped in the amber of this moment. There is no why."-Slaughterhouse-FiveQuoth the Ravennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2998191.post-1144397162455166402006-04-07T01:02:00.000-07:002006-04-07T01:06:02.456-07:00in squeezing my toothpaste onto my toothbrush this morning (it is 1 am) the initial sqeeze, due to some blockage of dried toothpaste around the opening, provided two bulbs of toothpaste. the continuing stream, being stretched along the toothbrush, became one line, and upon releasing the squeeze of the toothpaste, the last bit created a small bulg of the last of the toothpaste squeezed fromt the Quoth the Ravennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2998191.post-1144024648099507702006-04-02T17:35:00.000-07:002006-04-07T01:02:01.050-07:00we're going to sasquatch! going to see wolfmother! going on a roadtrip with neil! going camping in washington! going to a really awesome music festival! happy happy joy joy! i really hope this doesn't fuck over an unknown work schedule...early birthday present to me!Quoth the Ravennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2998191.post-1143490730233353392006-03-27T12:12:00.000-08:002006-03-27T12:18:50.246-08:00i hate patterns. actually, i love patterns, thats why i seek them and see them everywhere. but i hate this pattern. cause it doesn't bode well for me. in terms of backround boys all hooking up these days. i sense a lot of disappointment in the near future. but not direct disappointment. just the frustrating indirect kind that i can't actually do anything about because it's not a direct action Quoth the Ravennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2998191.post-1143451610135020312006-03-27T01:25:00.000-08:002006-03-27T01:26:50.150-08:00i really hate finding out over the internet that guys i like now are "In A Relationship" maybe having a computer in my room was a bad idea...Quoth the Ravennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2998191.post-1141810906097911882006-03-08T01:10:00.000-08:002006-03-08T01:41:46.123-08:00I said "bukak3" (spelling changed to hopefully avoid weird google hits) really loud in a japanese restaraunt. a small japanese restaraunt. where my voice was the only one going on. and we had been talking about other shit that you don't usually talk about in restaraunts but neither of us were really people with tact. and its going to get us into trouble someday. one of the old ladys that works Quoth the Ravennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2998191.post-1125974737100479092005-09-05T19:43:00.000-07:002005-09-05T19:45:37.106-07:00i now own a g-stringand matching langerieand a really cool beltand a digital camerai really need a bfexcept i don'tand i'm going to new york/europe in a few weeksQuoth the Ravennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2998191.post-1125389725063088292005-08-30T00:50:00.000-07:002005-08-30T01:15:25.126-07:00i finally find an amazing, sweet guy, who's able to say "i'm sorry", more than once, ....and he's moves to guamand takes way too long to get back to me, but so far he has a 6 month record to beat in terms of how long it takes a guy to call me back. bleh, and 2 am confessions of love, no, maybe just confused feelings, never end up sounding the way i want them to. or at least reading them the next Quoth the Ravennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2998191.post-1125133256294600032005-08-27T01:58:00.000-07:002005-08-27T02:00:56.300-07:00what does it all mean... sometimes i wonder...and get very confused...Quoth the Ravennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2998191.post-1125094561101950682005-08-26T15:15:00.000-07:002005-08-26T15:16:01.110-07:00him: heyNeeliaBuzz: hihim: how ya doinNeeliaBuzz: betterhim: goodhim: just wanted to make sure you were alrightNeeliaBuzz: failed writing 1him: ohNeeliaBuzz: yeahhim: im sorryNeeliaBuzz: went home, called my mom, things'll be okhim: goodNeeliaBuzz: got a ride home with christina and tommy gomez, talked to them about it, reassuring hearing from two people with MFA's that its not a huge Quoth the Ravennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2998191.post-1124612452646060692005-08-21T01:08:00.000-07:002005-08-21T01:20:52.653-07:00omg, colin farrell. the man literally has more phermones than god. he can induce an orgasm with a single look. oh my god, i don't know what i would do. if seeing him unexpectedly on saturday night live reduces me to a giggling melting pile of... i don't even know! its not right i tell you!Quoth the Ravennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2998191.post-1124544406964703352005-08-20T06:22:00.000-07:002005-08-20T06:26:46.973-07:00a test to see who you are and if you actually pay attention to my blog.i have just entered and entry that no one should ever see if they want to keep their self respect. tho not as bad as some of the shit out there, this is on par with a mild "the aristocrats" joke. i would not want this to be out there in a way that just anyone could stumble on, in fact i can think of quite a few people, even ifQuoth the Ravennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2998191.post-1124378616318465652005-08-18T08:20:00.000-07:002005-08-18T08:23:36.326-07:00i love this book, our musicals, ourselves. i suddenly understand why i didn't like grease and little shop when i was younger. because they invoke nostalgia. a nostalgia i didn't have. and in terms of grease, still don't have. little shop i think has gotten to me thru other means, nostalgia of having seen it in the past and listening to it and memories from childhood etc. plus i really like the Quoth the Ravennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2998191.post-1124267343290983292005-08-17T01:28:00.000-07:002005-08-17T01:29:03.296-07:00bottle of wine and a silk shirt after a well deserved showerwish you were hereQuoth the Ravennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2998191.post-1122449670405807172005-07-27T00:33:00.000-07:002005-07-27T00:34:30.413-07:00i have just bought an ipod and will soon be transfering all my music files onto it. the question that begs to be asked now: what shall be the first song i listen to off my brand spanking new ipod?Quoth the Ravennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2998191.post-1122275805732422172005-07-25T00:15:00.000-07:002005-07-25T00:16:45.740-07:00NeeliaBuzz: oh my god, i had a frikken date tonight!NeeliaBuzz: must brag to someone!NeeliaBuzz: it was so normal!!!NeeliaBuzz: like how it works in sitcoms!NeeliaBuzz: it was really nice!NeeliaBuzz: we met up at a coffee shop and chatted for a while then we walked around a bit then got dinner, then came to my place and watched a movieNeeliaBuzz: and got to leaning on eachother and arms around Quoth the Ravennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2998191.post-1121934252070388302005-07-21T01:23:00.000-07:002005-07-21T01:24:12.076-07:00kiss me, i'm 22Quoth the Ravennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2998191.post-1121157126228935352005-07-12T01:18:00.000-07:002005-07-12T01:32:06.246-07:00i'm really pissed. we had night focus tonight. i ended up doing frikken nothing. i was like a runner/errand boy and a lot of the time was just sitting around doing nothing and thinking about how i could be playing pool at a bar or dancing at goth night or having sex or talking sex or something other than sitting outside waiting for the slight chance that someone will have something they need me Quoth the Ravennoreply@blogger.com0